AggroChat 54 – Darkest Dungeon Show
The end result however is what I feel like our most successful game club title to date, because it certainly spurred on some conversation. Next months title is announced towards the end of the broadcast and I am sure it will be an equally interesting discussion. As for my own feelings… I really enjoyed the game, but it seems like I might be the most heartless bastard on the planet when it comes to how I treated my dungeoneers. Some of my co-hosts developed bonds to their spelunkers and for me… they were just fodder to be thrown at the problem like minions in a Dungeon Keeper game. Of all the games we have played for the game club so far this is the one that I am most likely to visit and keep playing, but I might be waiting until it exits early access. There are certain things in the game that I don’t know if they are broken or simply that they have not been finished yet.
Grand Experiment – Year Two
Two years ago today I set about to change the nature of my blog and embarked upon what I termed the “Grand Experiment” which was more than anything blogging every single day no matter if I had a thought in my mind worth writing down on paper. Now 730 posts later I continue to question what I was thinking when I started down this road. The end result has been an interesting ride to say the least. What has happened more than anything during these last two years is that I have gotten closer with the community of my fellow bloggers. This has been more important than anything else to me, and it is through all of the various events like the upcoming Newbie Blogger Initiative 2015 that it is happened. So while I question if I did anything that really mattered over these last two years, I am thankful for every single reader and peer that I now have. There are lots of bloggers that write daily, and they have not made a big deal about it… but for me this was huge. If you scan back through my blog there are several six month long lapses in content… and very rarely did I actually make it through a month without having a week with zero posts.
It has been so much more than just writing a blog for me personally. I have allowed myself to open up more about myself and my life than I ever had to date online. I’ve talked about my personal struggles, and shared with you my excitement and joy. I’ve let you all into my life, and while I still for the most part am scant on the details… you are seeing the impression of something very real that is happening. I figured out early into this process that there would be days when I simply don’t have anything game related to talk about. There would be days that I would have something on my chest that I needed to get out there, right or wrong… and I am thankful that you all have supported me. I’ve been told that for many people my blog post is now part of their morning ritual, and if they get to work… and don’t see one they start to worry if something happened to me. The first day I was late with a post and I had a deluge of people pinging me over twitter and IM to make sure I was okay… was absolutely overwhelming.
So tomorrow I begin the third year of this journey. There are days I question myself why I am doing this… what exactly I am trying to prove. The thing is I don’t really have an answer for either of those things. I enjoy this connection that I have to my readers, no matter how ephemeral it might be. There are days that I am doing this as therapy, other days doing it to share my excitement that I might burst if I don’t get it out onto the page… and in other days… the days I cannot seem to find the words, I am struggling forward for you. I feel like we have this contract, that I will write and you will read and together we will have this connection. I don’t want to be the one to sever that connection. I don’t want to be the one who lets down my end of this contract. So I will keep living and experiencing and doing my hack job of sharing that experience with you. This time next year I have no clue what I might be talking about… but I hope to still be talking and looking forward to our next journey.
Now I ask something of you. Since we have been sharing these moments each morning for some time… tell me about what you have done over these two years. Granted a lot of you have blogs of your own and they are in my RSS reader that I consume at irregular intervals like drinking from a giant firehose of words. But some of you out there have been with me this entire trip, and have never commented. I would love to hear from some of you, and let me know how your life has changed over these last two years. I might not even know you yet, but I would like to. What major changes has my readership gone through while I have been on this journey. I’ve upset a few people along the way, some of which have blocked me out of their lives… but I have gained several orders of magnitude more friends along the journey. That is the really important thing to me… all of the friends I have to show for my trip, and that I still keep in contact with on a weekly basis. You are the ones that give me the drive to keep moving forward, and hopefully this next year will be a fun trip shared together.