One of the problems with creating content is every now and then you will have something that you are very proud of, but the community doesn’t seem to be all that interested in. That is not to say that I am not proud of most of the things I am involved in. I love what this blog has become, and I love AggroChat… but that seems to be less about me and more about the group dynamic that we have assembled. However I feel like “Bel Folks Stuff” was one of those projects that I poured more of myself into than most. The idea was that I would grab interesting people and have natural conversations with them where we discussed whatever happened to be on their mind. I feel like for the most part that mission has succeeded, and I am very proud of the six episodes we have so far. In the episodes I have talked with:
Unfortunately after the release of the latest episode I did that thing you are never supposed to do… I did a deep dive into the statistics. In many ways this secondary podcast has been a labor of love, and right now it gets several orders of magnitude fewer listeners than AggroChat. So I question… what I did wrong with it? Maybe I have simply done a poor job of advertising it? It isn’t part of The Gaming and Entertainment Network so that right there is one strike against it. I release them with questionable regularity, which is another strike against it. I also question whether or not it was a good idea to treat it as separate from the other things that I do. I have wondered for awhile if I should have just released it as part of the AggroChat content stream.. as a sort of bonus episode or something. In any case… since looking at the stats I am exceedingly bummed about the limited audience. Maybe there just is not the appetite for listening to gamers rattle on? Anyways… this isn’t going to necessarily stop me from making more but I also feel like my guests have been awesome in their willingness to do the show… when there really isn’t much benefit from it.
Foundation of Folks
For some time now, I’ve had various people tell me that I use exercise any connections I have within the games industry to turn the “Folks” podcast into an industry interview show. I suppose I could do that, but the problem is I am afraid that would fundamentally change the nature of the show. It might be idealistic, but I wanted to create a show without pretense about its purpose. I wanted to have people on and just talk, and whatever topics we happened to cover naturally is what we would end up talking about. If I have people on the show that are known for this or that, there is the pressure to ask them about what they are famous for. By the same token, I would feel obligated to give them time to plug whatever hot project they happen to be working on. At that point we have a traditional interview show and not what I was hoping for. Maybe it is strange but I was hoping to have authentic conversation with a bunch of people, and almost forget for a time that we were recording the conversation.
I guess I question if I could talk “industry” folks into that sort of notion. So far the people I have had on the show I have a deep connection with already. These are people that I have gamed with, blogged with, or exchanged more tweets than I can count. Right now it feels like I am just having a conversation with a friend. I worry that I cannot keep up that dynamic with people I am not quite so personally invested in. Then there is the problem of how would I even sell this notion to someone, when I obviously cannot guarantee much in the way of listeners. That is the obvious sell for most big podcasts… is “talk to me and I can give you X number of ears”. I don’t have that going for me on any level. So yeah right now I am in this existential funk about “Bel Folks Stuff” and even though I love doing it… I am questioning if it is worth the scheduling headaches and the extra work on my part to keep it up. I want to keep it up, but damn… just bummed.
Last night when I got home… I was wallowing in my frustration over the podcast… so much so that I forgot that last night was to be the inaugural running of the second static group within the Free Company. The guild has been insane, and we are apparently so active and so prevalent that we jumped from 16th to 6th in the FFXIV free company activity standings. I will say for some time there has not been a single city I have been in that I did not at least bump into one person with the [GREY] tag. In order to help get the second static off the ground, myself and Kodra has offered to fill in as whatever role they needed us in. I ended up main tanking to Damai’s off tank as we managed to work through several content items. So while I started the evening in a bit of a malaise I finished it pumped about the prospects of having two active static teams within our free company.
We started off with Garuda Extreme, which I know very well… just not well enough to explain adequately apparently. This always seems to be a thing for me… I can do something, but I can’t necessarily tell you how to do it. For awhile we tried using the Duty Finder to fill our missing slots, but honestly had significantly more luck creating a party in the Party Finder. We met a few nice people on the server as well. We managed to clear Turn 1 and Turn 4 of Binding Coil of Bahamut as well. I was pleased that we one shot 4, since I remember having a significant amount of trouble with it initially when Ashgar and I tanked it. To add to the confusion for the sake of this arrangement… the roles were flipped from what I am most used to. The positive is… I feel like I could actually farm four over and over in an attempt to get my bear mount. I need to figure out which piece of high allagan I am missing so I can focus down those. I would really love to wear that full set of gear. Anyways the end of the evening was definitely better than the day, so I am thankful that I have such an awesome group of people to spend my game time with.