For a bit of some time recently… in truth the majority of Stormblood… I’ve developed a bit of a mental block against tanking. When I took my long absence from the game, it felt like in returning to it… that I just wasn’t quite certain of my abilities anymore. It was more than “I got rusty”, it was almost like I was allergic to taking responsibility for others. I could blame a lot of things, but I think in part it was due to the fact that in the real world I had a lot of responsibility thrust upon me. Right now I have sixteen people who report to me, and it has taken me a little over a year to reach a point where I am largely comfortable with that notion.
Much like my lapses in blogging from the past… the longer it went on the harder it was to start back up again. Then recently I set down the path of finishing off my Nexus weapon, and that involved soloing a plethora of dungeons. Weirdly enough the act of soloing the dungeons sorta helped grease the gears and make me remember that yeah… I actually do sorta like this thing. The other night I got “ninja invited” into tanking a group for some friends, and once again… I didn’t actually die in doing some real tanking. It more or less made me remember why I loved Warrior in the first place, and now I sorta wish I had never strayed from the path with Samurai.
As a result last night I spend most of the night tanking the same dungeon over and over… Saint Mocianne’s Arboretum Hard largely because it is the dungeon that drops gear that is unilaterally an upgrade for most of my slots. The question is… why am I doing this mere days from the release of an expansion where my gear will no longer matter at all? Who knows. I do things on my own weird time table, but as of last night I am sitting at 355 and was able to figure out how that number is derived to see how much gear I would need to bump up to 360. For your own reference… if you are a class with a two handed weapon it seems to be counting as though you items equipped of that item level in both your main hand and your off hand slot. Additionally the system does not appear to be following rounding rules and simply drops the decimal places.
There are so many systems in this game that I have completely ignored over the last few years because I more or less have been in a semi-checked out state since sometime in Heavensward. For example none of my retainers have jobs. They are all still whatever base class that they started out with, in spite of being probably past the requirements of turning into jobs. As such I have never used any of the dungeon options with your retainers, and honestly sort of regret that. There is a lot of fiddling to be done in this game and I have done a pretty poor job of keeping up with it. Now I sit on the precipice of two different things that I want to participate in conspiring to split my time. We have Shadowbringers launching on Friday and then in August we have World of Warcraft Classic which will also each up copious amounts of my time. My goal right now is to attempt to juggle both.
In other news I finally did enough of the Squadron mini game to hit the next Maelstrom rank. For a really long time I had tried to avoid my Limsa Lominsa heritage as a Marauder, but over time I eventually came back to the fold and now feel exceedingly comfortable in the weird white rock fortress on the sea. Till Sea Swallows All! Similarly odd I recently swapped back to my Leviathan barding of old… aka the entire reason why my chocobo is turquoise in the first place in order to blend in with that armor. It is a way more fitting choice for a Maelstrom lad than it ever was for an Ul’dahnan.
It is bizarre… I have gone from not really caring much about Shadowbringers to really looking forward to it. Now I am contemplating following my heart again and leveling as a Warrior, because ultimately this will always be my main class. Sure that means I will have to do the really dumb thing and level as a DPS… but whatever I have done it before. I am a tank and will always be a tank. Every other role I try on feels like an ill fitting glove. So expect me to be running headlong into packs of mobs in the expansion.
I hear you on the concerns on returning to tanking after some time away. I had this with WoW several times — far more severely than it ever occurred with healer.
I think it is largely around just how front and centre the tanking role is. Everyone is looking in your direction for a pretty good portion of the dungeon run. Healer as a role is every bit as critical, but rightly or wrongly I still felt it a step removed from that of tanking.
That isn’t to say that there weren’t times where I’d been a way and then struggled to get myself to return to healing too — but it was certainly far less severe when it did happen.
…Although I suppose also it was either do it or do nothing, since I only ever really played tank and heals. 😉 (Except for a short dint during WotLK when I had an arcane mage alt which was getting up there gear wise in alt-raids, etc.)