Whelp friends… I screwed up. November, December, and January were exceptionally busy months for me. At some point during that time I was only saved from the repo man by my friend Sol who happened to pop into my house and see that it was set for demolition. She unfortunately could not save me this time, and last night someone on Gamepad posted about the monthly routine of logging in and checking on the houses… which prompted a panic moment. I checked the email bound to that account from bed only to find out that my house in Final Fantasy XIV was repossessed on January 15th. So I had screwed up royally and cost myself my “perfect” house as a result. Weirdly I am not as devastated as I thought I would be. The big reason why this happened is that my FFXIV account is bound to an account that I do not check on regularly and apparently went over two months without logging into it.
On some level, my house was an attempt to capture the magic of a specific time and place when the game was super engaging for me. Our original Free Company house was Mists number 13, and when I was able to get that I thought maybe it would unlock an attachment to the game that I had been missing. It did not. Sure I spent a bit of time obsessing over housing details, but quickly I abandoned that project for more exciting things and my poor house sat for a year with only the most sparse decorations. I thought maybe it would ground me into the community… but in truth, the neighborhood was in was pretty dead. On the day a bunch of us got houses it was pretty hopping, but in each return visit, I saw pretty much no one.
On some level buying a house was like trying to buy my way back to a place and time shrouded in the deep past. This was taken from our old FC house, and our old Neighborhood… with the lively folks that were so community-oriented that we had a neighborhood linkshell. Truth be told… of that old crew of players the only one that I ever talk to on a regular basis is Ayla who is the miquote pictured above. Most of the other folks in that neighborhood are no longer even on Cactuar and have migrated off to other servers. Our Free Company also is nowhere near as active as it used to be. So the game just does not feel the same. I thought maybe owning the same plot of land would rekindle some of those feelings and it maybe did for a short period of time… but not long enough to keep me active.
The other truth is that I have changed. I am just not as interested in MMORPGs as I once was. Recently I returned to World of Warcraft after over two years away from it… and while I had quite a bit of fun for a few weeks I am already on my way out of that game as well. I leveled to the cap, then decided that there really wasn’t anything else that I wanted to do and wound up bouncing hard. This has been the case with FFXIV and the post-Stormblood expansions. I show up… have a lot of fun leveling through the main story quest, and then bounce shortly after hitting the level cap and doing some rudimentary gearing. I am not sure why I changed, but I most definitely did. So while I could be bitter about losing my housing plot and the money that I laid out in buying stuff for it… but in truth, I just can’t seem to muster much ire other than a “well shit”.
Truth be told… I think I am okay with this. Having my own housing plot really didn’t bring me much more happiness than having unfettered access to the Free Company plot does. The biggest change is that I stopped seeing a lot of the familiar faces from Shriogane that I had come to know, like the folks who lived across the street from our Free Company. I had thought if I ever lost the house I would decide that I was “officially done” with the game, but in truth, I am finding it doesn’t really matter that much one way or the other. I am way more attached to my Hideout in Path of Exile than I ever was to the housing plot that I purchased a little over a year ago. Maybe whoever buys the plot will be happier with it than I was. Maybe it will be the act that binds them to the game and makes the feel part of something. Maybe a fledgling Free Company will use it as a base of operations for many fun adventures. I am okay with letting it go, mostly because I have to be. It was my own damned fault and my own lack of focus that caused it.
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